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Post by Riza Hawkeye on Aug 11, 2011 1:24:15 GMT -5
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Post by Riza Hawkeye on Aug 11, 2011 1:25:13 GMT -5
Actually, I feel really stupid doing this. But a teacher I once had told me that I need to put my negative feelings, the bad things I go through, and my deepest thoughts in a box, so I confront them, but put them away as a part of my life once I've worked through it. I always though it metaphorical, but I managed to think up a way to make it literal. I think its an excuse not to have a journal, because I've been debating a journal for quite some time, now. I just feel its good to maybe sort out some of the things in my head on paper, in letters, and today I happened to remember what my teacher said. So, I went by the general store and bought a small wooden box and a good amount of blank paper and this is note number one. I won't date them or address them to anyone, because the only person who is likely to read them is a future me.
I don't know, this all feels like a silly excuse not to have something that could be easily branded a journal or diary. But Rebecca said it'd be good for me, and sometimes? She's right about things. And its not about men, so its safe to take the advice from her. Who knows, may it'll help.
We'll see.
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Post by Riza Hawkeye on Sept 14, 2011 15:29:00 GMT -5
Usually, I don't get so flustered about being busy, I can handle it pretty well during those crunch times. But I've been feeling so worn lately, I just can't muster the strenght to do anything, really. Its pitiful, I know. I'm much stronger than that. But it seems like the little things are getting to me, nipping at my nerves. Even Hayate notices, he whimpers and cuddles a lot more than usual. Which I'm grateful for, but it doesn't help with I'm at work dealing with procrastination and the results of it. Naturally, Mustang noticed. But he's no help, really. I've been short with even him. Perhaps I need a days break to step back and breathe a bit, do some shopping, take Hayate to the park. I need to find time to ask about that. But no time soon, there's work to do.
I'll just have to be patient until then.
...I'm always patient.
But I just had to write it out, how I felt. I couldn't sleep. I think I'll have some more tea and try again.
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